I just finished reading this book called ‘No Longer Human’ and I noticed that the protagonist was a partially relatable character. The protagonist fears humankind and has developed an unconscionable distaste for it which makes him feel disqualified to be a human being. I agree with the first half you see but I have an emendation for the latter half when it comes to me. Allow me to elucidate.
My distaste for most people arises from indifference, but in a society that thrives on relationships and pretty much makes everything about these relationships, my indifference is often met with contempt. “How can you not care?” “Simply”. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been told I’m quite altruistic so I guess I do care, depending on the person and circumstance.
This distaste does not result from me feeling disqualified to be a human being but from a position that views others disqualified to exist in the first place. I cannot wrap my around the naivety, the stupidity, the selfishness, the arrogance, the stubbornness, the fatuousness that some are born with and carry with them throughout their lives. Some think this distaste is a result of a narcissistic personality or even a superiority complex and that is another reason why I feel most human beings as incapable of deciphering emotions, or even being considerate. [Having superiority complex or a narcissistic personality has hidden feelings of insecurity and inferiority. I do not feel either. Is it simply not possible to have contempt for most human beings? ]
But I shall continue to maintain on the surface a smile when I see someone I do not want to see or do not particularly like, pretend a little more each day because…I really don’t know why.
Literature, Poetry and Reading. 